Monday, July 12, 2010
Time sure does FLY!
Wow, so Curtis and I are 34 weeks pregnant this week. I can't believe how fast this pregnancy has gone by. Only 40 more days until we get to meet the newest member of our family. We just had our baby shower over the weekend, and for some reason, it's made me feel anxious about the due date. I think it's because your shower normally signifies the end of your pregnancy because you get those last minute items you've been needing to finish up the months worth of planning. While I am very excited to meet her, I am also holding onto the "alone" moments Curtis and I have left. It's going to be 20+ years before we have this time again together, so I'm savoring it for as long as I can. Our relationship is the most important to me and I know that Lily will appreciate having two parents who have a strong, nurtured love for one another. I can't wait to meet her. I can't wait to see the look on Curtis' face when he sees her for the first time. I can't wait to introduce her to her LARGE family. I can't wait to show her her room that Curtis and I spent hours putting together for someone we've never met, but already loved. I can't wait to see if she looks more like Curtis or me. I can't wait to take her home and see Tucker's reaction. I'm so excited for the future, but I'm loving every moment of the present too.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Lily Moment
Yesterday, Curtis and I got to see our precious little daughter again. It will probably be the last time we see her until we're holding her in our arms in August. A month ago, we decided to have a gender determination 3D/4D Ultrasound done. We found out she was Lily and got some really neat photos of her. In a months time, she has grown SO MUCH. She was a little skinny baby, but now she's got some fat on her. She actually looks like a little baby now too. It's just amazing how much a baby can grow in a month. Her head was facing down towards the opening of my cervix and her little feet were up by my belly button. I can't believe she is that big already - the size of my hand! She was hiccuping during most of the ultrasound and she covered her face up at one point. The best part of the entire ultrasound was watching Curtis. I've known him for over 10 years and feel like I've witnessed every type of emotion from him - but this is completely different. It's like multiple emotions combined into this new SUPER emotion! I know what he's feeling, because I feel it too. It's an amazing feeling when you have that moment of connection between each other.
Can't wait to meet you Miss Lily! I think you have my feet and hope you have your Daddy's little cranium =)
Can't wait to meet you Miss Lily! I think you have my feet and hope you have your Daddy's little cranium =)
Monday, March 29, 2010
I’m Quitting Social Networking
After several months of mulling over the idea, I’ve finally decided that I’m quitting my two social networks – MySpace & Facebook.
I don’t feel that an explanation is necessary, but sort of feel like giving one anyway. There are a lot of reasons that lead me in the direction of leaving and only a few that convince me to stay. The reasons I would stay are really simple – I like talking with and sharing photos with my close friends and family – the ones that are “physically present” in my life now. I like to know what’s going on in their lives in case we have a long stint of not seeing each other. Those are the only reasons I am currently on there.
The reasons that lead me to delete my account are numerous. First of all, surfing Facebook is literally a waste of valuable time – time that I could be spending with the people that are actually IN my life – people I care about and love. It was fun at first to see what all of these people were doing with their lives, but honestly, why do I care? I haven’t seen 200 of the people on my friend list for over 5 years. Really, why do I care what their infatuation is with American Idol? If we were in each other’s lives, we would already know about this sort of stuff.
Privacy is also becoming more of an annoying issue for me and more over, the people that criticize me for not posting pictures or opening up more about my life really annoy me. It feels like, because you’re a “Facebooker,” you’re obligated to share every piece of information (because there is a spot) about your life including your birth date, anniversary, siblings, your entire resume, religious and political views, likes & dislikes – I mean if you’re a “Facebooker” then you know what I’m talking about and it can actually be a little scary if you think about it in the long run. I know most people might be thinking right now that you can control the privacy settings or just not fill in the blanks if you don’t want people to see your info, but I’d just rather not even deal with it anymore. As soon as you start deleting information, the more controversy it will bring with your “so-called” friends. Status updates are also becoming an annoyance for me. Just because I don’t post what I’m doing every hour doesn’t mean I lead a boring life. I don’t feel the need to inform people – especially those who I never see in my life.
Does it feel like the reasoning behind every photo you snap in your normal everyday life is for Facebook? It’s taken so that you can post it and prove how happy you are in your life, or what materialistic things you have in your life, or what friends you have or what trips you’ve taken or to prove you’re not a homebody or to prove you ARE a homebody…. I don’t know about the next guy, but I’m tired of this. The pictures I take are for me, not Facebook. If you are in the picture and you want a copy, YOU can post it to Facebook.
Drama. I’m really done with the drama that occurs over Facebook – drama that wouldn’t occur if you were talking face-to-face with someone. Words can have so much more meaning when typed and people can interpret things many different ways. Basically I feel like arguments arise over thin air and I wonder why people do this to themselves. It doesn’t make sense to me anymore, so I’m done with it.
I don’t know why I hold onto relationships for so long when there is nothing there but a history – nothing current and nothing in common but that history. And I’m tired of the recipient anger that occurs because we don’t keep in touch, when we never did anyway. There is nothing there – nothing compared to the love, respect and happiness I share with the “physically present” people who I share my life with now. They are the ones who mean the most to me, not the 200+ people on my friend list. I’m done wasting my time meandering through their lives through a lifeless machine when I have my own life to live.
So, the last thing for me to do is “Delete” my accounts. I may not do it today, or tomorrow, but I’ll be doing it soon. I’m going to keep my blog because it’s linked to my online portfolio and also because of the Nutts =) I see, hopefully, a long, happy friendship forming between our kids and between us as well.
I don’t feel that an explanation is necessary, but sort of feel like giving one anyway. There are a lot of reasons that lead me in the direction of leaving and only a few that convince me to stay. The reasons I would stay are really simple – I like talking with and sharing photos with my close friends and family – the ones that are “physically present” in my life now. I like to know what’s going on in their lives in case we have a long stint of not seeing each other. Those are the only reasons I am currently on there.
The reasons that lead me to delete my account are numerous. First of all, surfing Facebook is literally a waste of valuable time – time that I could be spending with the people that are actually IN my life – people I care about and love. It was fun at first to see what all of these people were doing with their lives, but honestly, why do I care? I haven’t seen 200 of the people on my friend list for over 5 years. Really, why do I care what their infatuation is with American Idol? If we were in each other’s lives, we would already know about this sort of stuff.
Privacy is also becoming more of an annoying issue for me and more over, the people that criticize me for not posting pictures or opening up more about my life really annoy me. It feels like, because you’re a “Facebooker,” you’re obligated to share every piece of information (because there is a spot) about your life including your birth date, anniversary, siblings, your entire resume, religious and political views, likes & dislikes – I mean if you’re a “Facebooker” then you know what I’m talking about and it can actually be a little scary if you think about it in the long run. I know most people might be thinking right now that you can control the privacy settings or just not fill in the blanks if you don’t want people to see your info, but I’d just rather not even deal with it anymore. As soon as you start deleting information, the more controversy it will bring with your “so-called” friends. Status updates are also becoming an annoyance for me. Just because I don’t post what I’m doing every hour doesn’t mean I lead a boring life. I don’t feel the need to inform people – especially those who I never see in my life.
Does it feel like the reasoning behind every photo you snap in your normal everyday life is for Facebook? It’s taken so that you can post it and prove how happy you are in your life, or what materialistic things you have in your life, or what friends you have or what trips you’ve taken or to prove you’re not a homebody or to prove you ARE a homebody…. I don’t know about the next guy, but I’m tired of this. The pictures I take are for me, not Facebook. If you are in the picture and you want a copy, YOU can post it to Facebook.
Drama. I’m really done with the drama that occurs over Facebook – drama that wouldn’t occur if you were talking face-to-face with someone. Words can have so much more meaning when typed and people can interpret things many different ways. Basically I feel like arguments arise over thin air and I wonder why people do this to themselves. It doesn’t make sense to me anymore, so I’m done with it.
I don’t know why I hold onto relationships for so long when there is nothing there but a history – nothing current and nothing in common but that history. And I’m tired of the recipient anger that occurs because we don’t keep in touch, when we never did anyway. There is nothing there – nothing compared to the love, respect and happiness I share with the “physically present” people who I share my life with now. They are the ones who mean the most to me, not the 200+ people on my friend list. I’m done wasting my time meandering through their lives through a lifeless machine when I have my own life to live.
So, the last thing for me to do is “Delete” my accounts. I may not do it today, or tomorrow, but I’ll be doing it soon. I’m going to keep my blog because it’s linked to my online portfolio and also because of the Nutts =) I see, hopefully, a long, happy friendship forming between our kids and between us as well.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Favorite Song Today
Fave song of the day.
This song is also in the movie "Into the Wild" which is an amazing film, too. Check it out.
This song is also in the movie "Into the Wild" which is an amazing film, too. Check it out.
Friday, March 12, 2010
New Years Resolutions UPDATES
Alright, so it's March and I've already gotten some of these babies taken care of.
1) Find at least 10 NEW meals to cook for dinners and/or lunches
My Mom bought me a new cookbook and I'm hoping to get at least a couple of
my meals from this
2) Get out of bed when my alarm goes off and not hit the SNOOZE
I'm counting on Lily to take care of this when she arrives =)
3) Learn how to garden (since we have a new house and lots of room now) in the Spring
We bought seeds for cucumbers, peppers and corn. Now we just have to scout
out a good sunny spot in our yard and plant em'. I also want to plant flowers but haven't bought seeds yet.
4) Start a scrapbook for our baby
I started a diary for Lily when we found out we were pregnant, recording
dates and so forth. When we found out "she" was coming, I bought a flowered
covered baby memory book thinking it would be appropriate to her name.
5) Master the art of cooking BREAKFAST!
Nada. Haven't even started this yet.
6) Get up before Curtis (on the weekends)
I'm counting on Lily to take care of this when she arrives as well =)
7) Garage sales! Look for BARGAINS!
Not quite into garage sale season
1) Find at least 10 NEW meals to cook for dinners and/or lunches
My Mom bought me a new cookbook and I'm hoping to get at least a couple of
my meals from this
2) Get out of bed when my alarm goes off and not hit the SNOOZE
I'm counting on Lily to take care of this when she arrives =)
3) Learn how to garden (since we have a new house and lots of room now) in the Spring
We bought seeds for cucumbers, peppers and corn. Now we just have to scout
out a good sunny spot in our yard and plant em'. I also want to plant flowers but haven't bought seeds yet.
4) Start a scrapbook for our baby
I started a diary for Lily when we found out we were pregnant, recordingdates and so forth. When we found out "she" was coming, I bought a flowered
covered baby memory book thinking it would be appropriate to her name.
5) Master the art of cooking BREAKFAST!
Nada. Haven't even started this yet.
6) Get up before Curtis (on the weekends)
I'm counting on Lily to take care of this when she arrives as well =)
7) Garage sales! Look for BARGAINS!
Not quite into garage sale season
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Winter Blues
Normally I'm okay with the snow and the cold, but today, I had a rush of emotions towards the arrival of Spring & Summer. I can't wait for flip flops, lush green grass, clear blue skies and warm sunshine. Most of all, I can't wait to meet our baby and show him/her everything in life that Curtis and I enjoy the most.
Monday, February 1, 2010
2010 New Years Resolutions
Every year, I make resolutions but I don't think I ever write them down. So my first 2010 resolution is to start writing down my resolutions. CHECK! One down. :)
I don't have many, so here is my list (in no particular order):
1) Find at least 10 NEW meals to cook for dinners and/or lunches
2) Get out of bed when my alarm goes off and not hit the SNOOZE
3) Learn how to garden (since we have a new house and lots of room now) in the Spring
4) Start a scrapbook for our baby
5) Master the art of cooking BREAKFAST!
6) Get up before Curtis (on the weekends)
7) Garage sales! Look for BARGAINS!
I may add more as I think of some, but this is pretty much it. I guess it's good to not have so many =)
I don't have many, so here is my list (in no particular order):
1) Find at least 10 NEW meals to cook for dinners and/or lunches
2) Get out of bed when my alarm goes off and not hit the SNOOZE
3) Learn how to garden (since we have a new house and lots of room now) in the Spring
4) Start a scrapbook for our baby
5) Master the art of cooking BREAKFAST!
6) Get up before Curtis (on the weekends)
7) Garage sales! Look for BARGAINS!
I may add more as I think of some, but this is pretty much it. I guess it's good to not have so many =)
Friday, January 22, 2010
We're Expecting =)
We had our first ultrasound a few days ago. I can't begin to explain how I felt. It was the most profound, precious and memorable moment of my life. I'll never forget how I felt when I laid eyes on our baby for the first time.
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